Chapter 10: I'm Scared

A/N: This is shorter, but this chapter was physically hard to write. I couldn't get myself to type it. But with the long weekend I am going to try to write a lot and update a lot. Thanks for my five followers, who hopefully read. Comments are awesome too.




Adam feel asleep at the second intermission and I carried him into my bedroom and tucked him into the bed. Then I went back out to the living area and finished watching the game. After there was an amazing goal from John Tavares I heard my phone start to ring and picked it up.
“DID YOU JUST SEE THAT?!?!?!?!” Sidney yelped into the receiver.
“Yea, pretty awesome,” I replied, wishing I still had the chance to master a move and shot like that.
“Yea, that was just…wow. I have no words.”
“I bet you could do it,” I say partly to myself and partly to him.
“I guess next practice I should practice it then,” He replies, and I can tell he is now watching the game as intently as I am. “This should get ugly, both teams need this game,” He says under his breath, and you can he is really into this game. When the next stoppage of play comes, he then asks; “Do you have skates?”
“A pair or two,” I reply. “Why?”
“Bring them, there might be a little open ice, and I would like to skate with you…” There was a pause and before I could answer he goes on, “Oh shit, I forgot, fuck, I’m sorry, the accident and, oh shit I am such an ass.”
Right off the bat I start laughing, “Sid. I guess I wasn’t too clear on my ‘condition’, ha, I can skate, and I can play, I just never again played competitively. I mean I have a younger cousin Lauren and I have helped her and her team when I’m back home, I have practiced with her. And I would love to skate with you when I get down there.” When I finish I hear someone come through the door, and I notice its Abbey, sketch book in hand. I wave and she pulls my poney tail while walking by me.
“Really? Well know I am really pumped for you to come down.”
“Yea, well I’m pumped too. But ah Sid I have to go, I’ll call you later. Alright?”
“Its fine, Talk to you soon,” And with that I hung up walking over to Abbey. “How are the sketches coming?”
“Done thank god. It’s such a hassle and then I STILL don’t know if my boss will like them because he is out of town for a month. The Bitch. Anyways Izzie still isn’t here? Strange, huh, well I am glad she is dating though.”
“Yea, and Adam is passed out on my bed because David is on a date too.” I reply following her into her room,”
“Goddamn, I am tired,” She whines kicking her shoes off and plopping onto her bed. “I love it’s like nation date night for the usual week and here we are babysitting and sketching for a bitch.”
“Life sucks sometimes,” trying to convince myself that I am not too much of a loner.
“Excited to go to Pittsburgh Mads?” Abbey asks getting my attention.
“Yes and no. My therapist doesn’t think it’s a good idea, and Izzie hasn’t really said that it’s a good idea, you’re the only one who is pushing me to go. I am also worried about the whole hockey thing. I mean everyone who I meet and has heard of my problems will probably ask me something about the experience. Don’t you think?”
“Well since you asked.”She starts going into the bathroom while I sit in the hanging chair in her room, “Screw everyone. Screw your therapist, Izzie, and even me.” She emerges now in our high school soccer pants and one of my Cortland Hockey shirts, “And if people ask make a joke.” Laughing she continues, “Remember when Jeremy asked you and you pulled up her shirt so we all saw her bright neon yellow sports bra and said I want to get my scares tattooed into a hockey stick so I never forget.” She is full on laughing now, spinning me around so now I am looking straight into her eyes. All of a sudden her laughing stops and she looks serious. “Be honest Mads. I am going to ask you some questions and I want honest answers. Do you like Sidney?”
“Yes, of course. Why wouldn’t I be flying to Pittsburgh for a week if I didn’t like the guy.”
“I don’t know, but next. You understand that being with him will bring all of your emotions back? You will be a mess sometimes, and with being a pro athlete, if this thing gets serious, he won’t always be around, right?”
“It won’t matter,” I saw quietly, “I will be here, and he will be in Pittsburgh. And I have you and Izzie so you two can help me if I go back to where I was in high school. Right?”
“Always,” She promises. And the one thing I love most about Abbey is she never brakes a promise. She walks away from me and turns around here eyes like darts marking their target.
“Slut,” She spites.
“Excuse me,” I reply dumbfounded
“Are you ready for that? There will be little girls who masturbate to pictures of Sidney. Kiss a picture of him that’s on his wall every morning. And what about the three girls who he lives with. What about all their friends. Madeline, are you ready for this?”
“I….I….I….holy shit I am scared.” I finally admit. “I’m not ready for this.”
“But you are, Mads. Do you want to know why. Sidney will be there for you, and you will be there for Sidney. And if its meant to be, it will work.